I'm awake

 

This is my first post for 2013 . Hope this year will be the best year ever . SPM ? yes , that's one of the challenges ! but I don't want to talk about SPM in this post :) I wanna share a story which makes me realised how weak I am.Dear Allah,I'm so weak ! Please forgive me :'(

This feeling appeared in my heart when I chatted with my friend.Sorry,I can't mention her name.Just a friend :')

She is a good-mannered girl.She always makes me feel comfortable to chat with her.Yes,she is my virtual friend.But,did you guys ever think that a virtual friend can make us aware from our mistakes,rather than our real friends?

No matter who we are , we still make mistakes.Nobody perfect.But,don't make it as a reason for you not to change.Yes,nobody perfect,but everybody can be better right ? :)

Back to the story,she is not a student from islamic school.First time to know her,I thought she is a student from an islamic school.But,a statement from her that she is not a student from islamic school made me shocked.From deep of my heart,I really respect her.Why?sbb dy ad ilmu agama yg tggi. *ckp melayu je,sng siket nk cite* dy tu sgt2 pndg tggi kt budak sekolah agama.tak sangka,dlm tawanya,dy memendam perasaan.sedih sangat2 bila baca ap yg dy tules.smpai mengalir air mata aku.,,hati aku tersentuh...

"saya suka tgk org tudung labuh2..yg purdah tu lagi saya suka..sebenarnya saya nak cakap sesuatu..dalam hati saya ni saya teringin sangat nak sekolah agama...nak sangat2..selalu jugak menangis..bila tgk budak sekolah agama.saya cemburu..bila saya nampak org pakai purdah saya nangis..saya rasa saya nak sgt jadi mereka..tp keluarga saya tak camtu..dan kadang2 saya rasa tak adil kenapa budak sekolah agama sia2kan diri mereka camtu..kenapa mcm tu..saya nak masuk sekolah agama tp tak dpt,mereka yg sekolah agama plak taknak ambik manfaat.hanya Dia je yg tahu cemana saya nak masuk sekolah agama..tp ayah saya...awak tahu tak saya tak pernah pergi sekolah agama..tak pernah dibawa ajar mengaji dan takda siapa nak ajar saya.awak faham tak keadaan saya?saya minat tp saya tak boleh..saya belajar sendiri membaca.awak tahu tak cemana saya teringin sangat nak duduk dalam kalangan korang?tak..takda siapa tau..ayah saya pun.saya sedih bila kenang balik semua ni.

korang patut bersyukur sgt2..ada peluang..tp saya takda sedangkan dlm hati ni nak sgt3..."

 all her words made me cried :') kawan2,she's a very determine girl.she can talk and understand arabic even she do not learn it in school.knp?sbb IKHTIAR,USAHA,KEINGINAN.dy nak sgt2,dy ikhtiar utk mendalami ilmu agama and bhse arab.and alhamdulillah she did it with success.what about me?I feel so lack.she made me realised...don't ever think that we are good enough.A good person never stop to improve himself/herself to be better.The only reason of our life is to reach mardhatillah.The other things  that Allah gave us in this world are just to make us comfortable to carry out the task.
only one thing to do for solving this problem is . . . 

upgrade our iman :)

SALAH = SOLAT :)

thank you Allah,for making me realised and awake from my khilaf.Alhamdulillah.I feel so lack.Sometimes,I feel lost.How can I be a good seeker of You? :'( I'm so lack in many things.Dear Allah,please show me the way :'| I know,I will never find the way if I'm not trying...Shafina , you must TRY . no effort , no succes .

to all the readers,ambillah intipati post ni sbg pengajaran.segala yg baik , ambillah.segala yg buruk,tinggal je kt sni kay :') sorry for any mistakes,especially about the grammar and broken english :)